thoughts & ponderings
I know it may seem strange for someone who has chosen holistic health as a career to say this but I'm just going to come right out and say it. I was too afraid to have a massage because I was overweight. I was in my 30's before I actually got the courage to go and lay on a massage table with nothing but a towel between me and ... and what?
Embarrassment? Shame? Fear? Perhaps all of those things but what I am most sheepish about is the fact that I was so willing to presume that a massage therapist would judge me based on my body size. That they would have to work through the jiggly bits to find some muscle and not be able to deal with it. Hmm, time to look at my own thoughts about my body I think and maybe reel in some of those unjust projections.
When I thought about the modalities that I would like to offer to encompass overall well-being it included bodywork. This is because there are so many health benefits from having massage as well as the fact, as I now know, that it is really nice. I had never considered judging somebody based on their physical appearance or anything else for that matter. So, why would any other massage therapist be judging me? That's when I had the sudden uncomfortable revelation that I was being a tad arrogant to think that I would not judge but that others would.
I have since had many massages, some great and others not so much. I even did a lomi lomi massage course, which is a loving, flowing Hawaiian style massage, where I wore nothing but a sarong draped between my legs when I was on the table being massaged by another student. And guess what? I didn't cause anyone to run from the room screaming. I found more acceptance in every person in that room than I had for myself. Something wonderful changed in me that day and I know that if you can just give it a try it can change something in you too.
I feel like shouting out to everyone who is too afraid to have massage because of body image issues to book a session and walk in being your fabulous self and enjoy the experience.
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